Life Without Teamwork Is Fucking Lonely

Photo by Francisco Arnela, from Unsplash

Today marks the 30th day of my being unemployed. I resigned last Dec. 19 and I rendered my last day on Jan. 15. It doesn’t feel any different though, I still feel lonely. I feel lonely because I feel alone. And this is the last thing I expected from myself considering that I am introverted. I always thought of myself as someone who would work better alone rather than with a team because of that very nature. But after two […] Read More

Afterthoughts | You (Season 1)

I prefer a realistic kind of plot when it comes to movies and series. I am quick to react when what happens on the screen isn’t likely to happen in real life like Sierra Burgess Is A Loser. But there are exceptions, especially if they made it clear that it isn’t supposed to be realistic, like in The Babysitter. You somewhat falls in the middle. Of course, it’s not gonna be realistic, it’s a TV show! I know, I know. There […] Read More

What’s Up This Year?

Wow, another year again! 2018 passed by so quickly. Granted, last year wasn’t as exciting as I expected it to be, it still gave me its own share of learning and growth. My biggest achievements in the year 2018 were taking that 3D course and moving out. Yup, I’m only counting two achievements for the entire year. And admittedly I felt disappointed that I wasn’t able to achieve anything else. But no, I don’t want to rob myself of the […] Read More

First Solo Hike | Taal Volcano

Severe Craving For Nature It is true that you only have 4 burners in your life. Whenever you prioritize certain things, you pay less attention to others. After months of total concentration on my craft, I felt a severe longing and craving for nature. Suddenly, the tall buildings surrounding me seemed taller and more dominant. I needed to see the horizon – I needed to feel free. My friends weren’t available on the nearest possible date, so I opted to […] Read More

Guarding an Innately Destructive Self

Is what it feels like to have – whatever. I have to constantly be there for myself or else I go back to my default setting: self-destructive. That’s the hardest part for me right now because I’ve been good for a long time. Not perfectly consistent, but I’ve been good to myself. On days that I relapse, I realize that my “good self” is not my normal self. Because it’s so fucking easy to go back to the way I […] Read More

2018 Mid-Year Reflection

It has been my constant habit to evaluate myself every after project, or after a certain duration. On my 2017 Year-End Review, I made some progress on social skills, networking and life skills. This year was assigned for the hard skills. Let’s see how I did for the first half of the year.

Moving Out Again?

Okay. So yes, another “life update” type of post haha. A lot has been happening albeit unnoticeable to social media due to my lack of online activity. I moved to a new place! Where? Bonifacio Point Why? Easy. I hate long, daily commutes and I’m basically buying my own time for other more important stuff. Plus – total independence Kumusta naman? It’s been a mild emotional rollercoaster ride! I don’t know why but it feels sadder to move out within […] Read More

Progress In Art Journey

It has been a two months since my last blog post. I almost feel disappointed with myself. But I have a valid reason for my unscheduled hiatus – art school. Yes, I got into art school again. I took a 6-month specialist course at CIIT, for 3D modelling and animation. I’ve always wanted to learn 3D but I haven’t gotten around to trying out Blender (even though I’ve already watched many videos from Blender Guru, Andrew Price). I’ve also been […] Read More

Netflix Movies & Series Review | February

I’ve watched a couple of content on Netflix and I repeatedly felt like I wanted to write something about them on my blog. So compiling them into one post seemed like a nifty idea. There’s no spoilers below so no need to worry. Movies The Babysitter I’m one for realistic story lines, but the idealistic take of this movie is an exception. The cinematic art of it saves it from the typical “does that really happen in real life?!” reaction. […] Read More

On Coming Home

I am home and I don’t think I will leave again – for work under this company anyway. To work on a desktop and be remote is quite inefficient, don’t you think? I do. Those two weeks were sadder than the 3 months I did last year. Maybe because I didn’t want to go back anymore. And the two weeks I experienced supports my predicament. The day I was flying home was the most rewarding feeling I ever felt in […] Read More